...about the effects of them — the running, the searching, and the festering wounds: Nick had loved him very much and for a long time. Now, knowing how it...before things had gone badly was not good remembering. If he wrote it he could get rid of it. He had gotten rid of many things by writing them. But it was...

...remain in the published text of "Fathers and Sons" only in a general way: "Now, knowing how it all had been, even remembering the earliest times before things had gone badly was not good remembering" (371). Nick knows that he can "get rid of these memories by writing, but because it is "still too early"...

...Adams stories.2 Thinking back upon his boyhood, Nick, now thirty-eight and a writer, realizes that "even remembering the earliest times before things had gone badly was not good remembering" [589]. But he cannot stop the flow. His initiation into sex with an Indian girl and his father's suicide...

...of the story doesn't work" (1998, 66). difficult — especially when Nick reflects soon after that "Now, knowing how it had all been, even remembering...before things had gone badly was not good remembering. If he wrote about it he could get rid of it. He had gotten rid of many things by writing them. But...