The sun goeth forth from his chambers: the sun All returns to its place. Use and Habit are powers III. Alfred Vargrave had time, after leaving Lucile, On the coat which we once wore with pleasure no doubt, IV. He felt ill at ease with himself. He could feel So sad, so reproachful, so cruelly kind, That his heart fail'd within him. In vain did he find A thousand just reasons for what he had done : ''Twere a false sense of honour in me to suppress 6 It is not as though I were bound to some poor village maiden, I know, Unto whose simple heart mine were all upon earth, 'Or to whose simple fortunes my own could give worth. Matilda, in all the world's gifts, will not miss Aught that I could procure her. 'Tis best as it is!' V. In vain did he say to himself, 'When I came To this fatal spot, I had nothing to blame 'Or reproach myself for, in the thoughts of my heart. 'I believed, and with honest conviction believed, In my love for Matilda. I never conceived 'That another could shake it. I deem'd I had done 'Which I sought in the love that I vow'd to my wife. 'Poor child! she shall learn the whole truth. She shall know 'What I knew not myself but a few days ago. 'The world will console her-her pride will support 'Her youth will renew its emotions. In short, 'There is nothing in me that Matilda will miss 'When once we have parted. 'Tis best as it is!' VI. But in vain did he reason and argue. Alas! He yet felt unconvinced that 'twas best as it was. That infantine face of Matilda, with eyes So sad, so reproachful, so cruelly kind, That they harrow'd his heart and distracted his mind. VII. And then, when he turn'd from these thoughts to Lucile, Whatever was noblest and best, though disguised, Then, her life, From which he for ever escaped to the thought Doubt could reach not. . . . 'I love her, and all else is nought! VIII. His hand trembled strangely in breaking the seal At the sight of the very first word that he read, That letter dropp'd down from his hand like the dead A desolate tree in a wide wintry air. He pass'd his hand hurriedly over his eyes, And dismay, in one sharp moan, broke from him. Anon IX. THE COMTESSE DE NEVERS TO LORD ALFRED VARGRAVE. 'No, Alfred! 'If over the present, when last 'We two met, rose the glamour and mist of the past, Mine one moment hath clasp'd as the hand of a brother, 'For that moment (now past!) I have made you forget 'True, 'That meeting, which hath been so fatal, I sought, Conviction, at least, that our meeting would be Without peril to you, although haply to me 'The salvation of all my existence. 'I own, 'When the rumour first reach'd me, which lightly made known 'To the world your engagement, my heart and my mind 'Suffer'd torture intense. It was cruel to find 'That so much of the life of my life, half unknown 'To myself, had been silently settled on one 'Upon whom but to think it would soon be a crime. Then I said to myself, "From the thraldom which time "Hath not weaken'd there rests but one hope of escape. "That image which Fancy seems ever to shape "From the solitude left round the ruins of yore, "Is a phantom. The Being I loved is no more. "What I hear in the silence, and see in the lone "Void of life, is the young hero born of my own "Perish'd youth: and his image, serene and sublime, "In my heart rests unconscious of change and of time. "Could I see it but once more, as time and as change "Have made it, a thing unfamiliar and strange, See, indeed, that the Being I loved in my youth "Is no more, and what rests now is only, in truth, "The hard pupil of life and the world: then, oh, then, "I should wake from a dream, and my life be again "Reconciled to the world; and, released from regret, "Take the lot fate accords to my choice." 'So we met. 'But the danger I did not foresee has occurr'd: 'We meet, Alfred Vargrave, no more. I, indeed, 'Shall be far from Serchon when this letter you read. My course is decided; my path I discern: 'Doubt is over; my future is fix'd now. 'Return, 'O return to the young living love! Whence, alas! M 'And, oh! |